The Cherry's Stories

Love~

2012-01-10T00:49:00.000-08:00

Everyone says that love hurts

but that's not true

Loneliness hurts

Rejection hurts

Losing someone hurts

Everyone confused all these thing with LOVE

but in reality..

LOVE

is the only thing in this world

that covers up all the pain and

makes up feel Wonderful again

p/s: saya jiwang tak? hehe

Pixie Lott - Broken Arrow

2011-12-28T21:35:00.000-08:00

What do you do when you're stuck

because the one that you love

has pushed you away

& you can't deal with the pain?

& now you're trying to fix me

mend what he did

I'll find the piece that I'm missing

But I still miss him

I miss him, I'm missing him

I miss him, I miss him, I'm missing him

& you're sitting in the front row

wanna be first in line

waiting by my window

giving me all your time

you could be my hero

if only I could let go

but his love is still in me

like a broken arrow

He's the thorn in my flesh

that I can't take out

he's stealing my breath

when you're around

& now you're trying to convince me

he wasn't worth it

but you can't complete me

he's the part that is missing

I miss him, I'm missing him

I miss him, I miss him, I'm missing him

What do you do when your heart's in two places?

you feel great but you're torn inside

you feel love but you just can't embrace it

when you found the right one at the wrong time...

under construction

2011-12-28T20:34:00.000-08:00

This blog under construction

I love you..

2011-10-05T20:58:00.001-07:00

Love cannot be defined in words it can only be felt

That's what you told me

I really love you

Truly~

love letter

2011-10-04T01:57:00.000-07:00

Dear love,

Sorry for everything. the shout, the fight.. I'm sorry. I know that you try so hard just to make me happy.

you sweet, charming, caring... I love you.. I know that you dah banyak sabar dgn I. selalu buat you sedih & marah.. really don't meant it..

I wish I can bagi tau u something. but I xberani... If I dah bagi tau u.. am so sorry.. sorry for all this.. I don't mean to hurt your feeling.. but I really don't know wer to run from it.. don't mean to hurt ur feeling.. or anything..

You always mengalah dgn i.. even its not your fault pon.. you yg pujuk i.. sorry.. wish everything gonna be okay a.s.a.p.. like we really wanted it to be..

Thanks cause you take me as ur girlfriend. & you accept me the way i am.. I really appreciate it. hope we can be forever & always..

I love you~ with all my heart.. I know am maybe not a good girlfriend but am trying to be the best girlfriend for you.. :)

trust me.

xoxo

zara

I got this from my lil brother

2011-09-26T09:39:00.000-07:00

A teenage girl about 17 had gone to visit some friends one evening and time passed quickly as each shared their various experiences of the past year. She ended up staying longer than planned, and had to walk home alone. She wasn't afraid because it was a small town and she lived only a few blocks away. As she walked along under the tall elm trees, Diane asked God to keep her safe from harm and danger. When she reached the alley, which was a short cut to her house, she decided to take it. However, halfway down the alley she noticed a man standing at the end as though he was waiting for her. She became uneasy and began to pray, asking for God's protection. Instantly a comforting feeling of quietness and security wrapped round her, she felt as though someone was walking with her. When she reached the end of the alley, she walked right past the man and arrived home safely. The following day, she read in the newspaper that a young girl had been raped in the same alley just twenty minutes after she had been there. Feeling overwhelmed by this tragedy and the fact that it could have been her, she began to weep. Thanking the Lord for her safety and to help this young woman, she decided to go to the police station. She felt she could recognize the man, so she told them her story. The police asked her if she would be willing to look at a lineup to see if she could identify him. She agreed and immediately pointed out the man she had seen in the alley the night before. When the man was told he had been identified, he immediately broke down and confessed. The officer thanked Diane for her bravery and asked if there was anything they could do for her. She asked if they would ask the man one question. Diane was curious as to why he had not attacked her. When the policeman asked him, he answered, "Because she wasn't alone. She had two tall men walking on either side of her." Amazingly, whether you believe or not, you're never alone. Did you know that 98% of teenagers will not stand up for God? Repost this as if you truly believe in God. PS: God is always there in your heart and loves you no matter what and if you stand up for him he will stand up for you.

friends who make me laugh unstop

2011-09-25T21:43:00.000-07:00

Navina

Mariana

Atif

I love you girls!

bencong sialan

2011-09-25T21:32:00.000-07:00

pergh! dasar bencong! swear bengang giler... supposedly aku yg emo sbb dye yg tak buat kerja. but dye pulak nak emo.. felik noh! tak kan lah xde otak nak fikir dah bersembahyang air2 yg ade. sengaql2. lepas tu nak hempas sume barang.. atleast cakap uh thanks sbb bat kerje dye.. ni emo.. bencong2.

dah kenal bukan baru. kenal dr sekolah rendah.. so, fikir lah. jangan ingat kau je yg penat. orang lain tak penat. aku pun OT jugak... siap time tu segugut lg.. but buat cool je... adoyai.. ni lah manusia... tak pernah nak bersyukur..

whatever.. emang nya aku udah paham kamu.. kamu seorang bencong sialan.. LOL

Avril Lavigne - Smile

2011-08-04T10:47:00.000-07:00

You know that I'm a crazy bitch
I do what I want when I feel like it
All I wanna do is lose control
But you don't really give a shit
you don't let it go let it go with it
'cause you're fucking crazy rock'n'roll

You said "Hey,
What's your name?"
it took one look
and now I'm not the same
Yeah you said "Hey."
and since that day
you stole my heart
and you're the one to blame

Yeah
and that's why I smile
It's been a while
since every day and everything has
felt this right
and now you're turning all around
and suddenly you're all I need
The reason why I smile

Last night I blacked out I think
What did you, what did you put in my drink?
I remember making out and then, oh, oh
I woke up with a new tattoo
your name was on me and my name was on you
I will do it all over again

You know that I'm a crazy bitch
I do what I want when I feel like it
All I wanna do is lose control
You know that I'm a crazy bitch
I do what I want when I feel like it
All I wanna do is lose control

happy

2011-08-04T10:44:00.000-07:00

semester break for a month!!

have lots of fun

with

family

friends

him

^^v

Final Exams

2011-07-14T22:38:00.001-07:00

now I'd been busy with final exam

Financial Accounting

Business English

Business

Computer Application

now

I'm

STRESSED OUT

bye~

update update~

2011-06-20T19:33:00.000-07:00

*lame gile aku tak update blog ni.
macam ape je aku tengok.

blog ni pun buat suke-suke je.
bukan hari-hari nak tulis because.....
aku bukan reti pun nak tulis ape pun.

ape pun tak buleh.. ape pun tak buleh..

hi! hi!
aku sekarang just tengah busy dengan assignments & presentation.
final tinggal sebulan je lagi..
so,
wish me luck lah ok?

toddles!

new college environment

2011-04-07T03:18:00.000-07:00

Sunway College Johor Bahru
still same with the last time I'd been to that college studying there.. just don't have 2 most important friends. Ms Joanne & Ms Maggie.. I miss both of them.. but I still not-alone.. because I have new friends... started from the 1st friend I met, Ms Atif. she's pretty.. then the 2nd day I knew 2 Ms talkalots! Jass & Mariana.. Mariana is Indonesian... she's 1 of my Olympia College's friend's sister... lucky!! then the next day I get to knew other 2.. Navina & Vivi.. 1 is chindian & other one thai-dian.. mixes & mixed.. they're all pretty.. ^^V now is the 2nd weeks of college. starting busy with the damn bloody assignment... =.=' hate it!!

the one~
But my 2nd college been a bit lonely because my boyfriend when to Indonesia.. miss him a lot.. & yesterday he dreamed about me.. he dreamed I have another boyfriend.. lame... it's just a dream.. but he's so worried.. you know I love you.. so? what the deal?? & my phone been so psycho!!! suddenly couldn't switch on. lame oh so lame! because of the most worried guy couldn't contact me, he's saying that it's sooooo true I'd betrayed him... OMG! you know me baby.. miss you so much..

other friends~
miss to hang out with you guys... love you so much... sorry I'd been busy lately... start doing assignment d... I promise when I finished all of my assignment I'll spent time with you guys.. my life gonna be dark without you guys.. :)

I guess that's all for now. toodles!

funny things about her.

2011-03-11T02:00:00.000-08:00

sitting down burn a stick of cigarette looking out the window suddenly aha! I need to write a blog...

it's about a friend of mine. not hate her, just don't like her. that's different. totally! she think she good enough than anyone else.

one day I feel so guilty with my supervisors & managers when they're talking about her. I couldn't believe I made a statement to them. "sorry kak.. saya rasa bersalah lah... tak tau dia jadi macam tu..." then they ask me why & i answered. "dia cakap dia dah lame tak clubbing. dia pernah clubbing.. 1 day dia tau saya nak pergi.. & dia nak ikut... so saya bawak lah dia... tak tau lah dia addict sampai tipu mak dia... & tak datanag kerja sume... sorry ea??"

she's older than me but acting like a kid. keep on insulting other people.. made people feel bad... can't believe some people do scared of her...

I think am getting annoyed of her.. i guess...

another thing is she tell people am just like her. play around.. hahaha no way! just because i walk like this, am just like you sweety. this is how i walk since young & btw my join at my knees not properly connected.. u can ask doctor if u think am sooooo like u.

am not a girl who like to play around with guys... I just can't.. cause eventhough my BF always busy with his work & I still love him...

ehmagod! am i saying this... yeah!! I didn't return ur friend's CD. & am sorry.. I'm sick & stay at home... I'm not bitching around.. why don't you take the CD by urself? huh??

BTW, if u say am a bitch yeah thanks... but atleast i never lie to my mummy. not like you. :)

Mr. Unsmile aka the mysterious guy

2011-03-09T14:13:00.000-08:00

fuh! can't believe i wrote my blog twice today. well, i'm in a good mood now.

hey, mysterious guy. i miss your smile. make sure u always smile when I'm not around. wish to be around u always..... just to make u smile. but i can't. don't be so serious.. kay?

I don't know why I have a guts to read ur blog on 5.45 am. that's weird for me. hurmmm..

act, i have no mood all day.. i mean 3 days straight. getting mad of my BF maybe for being so busy i guess. but now it's change...

i smiled when i remember the 1st time we meet after 8 years. i ask u to join me & my friends. hang out together. even i called u many time just to ask u "yun dah sampai ke?". well, act, am excited to see u. never in my life giving u hope, take chance. nope! i might be a jerk but i got other reason. my life totally complicated. & i hate it! I wish i can slow the time a bit. just graduated but HAVE TO continue study. January 2008- Sunway college, JB. January 2009-Olympia college,JB. & by March 2011 again, SUnway College,JB. urgh! my head gonna blow!!!!! well, atleast ur blog make me smile. i maybe don't know anything bout art. but i like urs. :)

well, act, trying to say.. ur blog make me hurm.... try to find the best word here... arrrr aha! happy & relax. :) i think that's my best word.

love you,
ur friend.

missing you

2011-03-09T12:23:00.000-08:00

sometimes things gonna change. well, dear you see. I don't need ur money. I don't need a white gold ring for my birthday. a surprise party. a cake writen happy birthday honey. I don't need roses to apologized. i don't need a teddy bear that bigger than me. I don't need anything from u. but it's 1 thing that i really need. ur love.

how can i get it 100%? look dear. love don't cost a thing. I hated when u always busy with all ur work. all the meeting & reports. until few days being alone. don't know what to do. u'd been busy. everything's screw up.

well, sometimes i feel lousy when u said don't wear such of thing. don't go to club. no need parties. but atleast i feel u care about me. i remembered when am sick. need to go to doctor check my blood. omg! can't believe u been so care. now, u don't even know where i am.. miss ur love baby.

why u'd been busy? I know u own a company.. & now everything's messing up there. but atleast. we less than 2 km. can't u just visit me? even messages didn't help cz sometimes i just don't wan to disturb u with all ur works. things getting worst when u act this way. wish u come back. can't believe now am crying lean my head on the pink teddy bear that u gave me. fuck! i wish these will settle soon.

miss ur hugs. cz that u always do to make me feel better.

whatever happened I still being me

2011-01-18T08:02:00.000-08:00

hello fellas. it's been a long time i never update my blog. pfft! life been so crazy lately. working hard for extra money. even at the end I don't know what am I spending money to. party? hurmm.. is it worth it? bags? shoes? perfumes & moreeee perfumes!!! beer? nah!! dorothy perkin? mango? topshop? where's the hack my money gone to? arghhhhh!!! why it never be enough?

study?
done!! grad already... searching for continue but I don't feel like wanna study anymore... why can't I travel to Cambodia? Surabaya? Bali? Tokyo? Seoul? arghhh! don't have money for that... =.='

boyfriend or boyfriends?
hahaha boyfriend. the one & only. the one who break my heart but try so hard to fix it when it fixed broke it again. LOL. sometimes been busy working... sometimes been busy with business... searching money to get a better life... TIA? report? research? what the hack is that?? pfft!

girlfriends?
everyone been busy. one, try so hard to be miss popular. another one, so in love with her boyfriend. last one, haih!!! try so hard to get in....

the bitches?
the new bestfriends. parties.. get drunk.. lepak.. hot guys... gossiping... can't get any better to do. so lame...

Mr. Turtle?
find a better life I guess.. searching for new girlfriend which is NOT wearing high heels, pumps or even wedges. he prefer a girl who wears sneakers, pairs with jeans & shirt. NOT a make up freak. NOT afraid to get tanned. bla bla bla. hahaha write a f**king loong note wey!

Mr. unsmile?
I just miss to make you smile... smile lah!! you know it's hard for me to make you smile baby? kinda miss you... the guy who obsessed with art. kinda like it. ;)

more more more.. still thinking.. arghhh! almost blow my own brain... okay! it's time for me to say buhbye~ take a cigarette. chalo baby!

I say this because I love you

2010-10-04T11:53:00.000-07:00

I'm stuck. You'll never gonna change isn't you? why can't you be a lovable person like other guys do? urgh!! you always busy with your works. I damn bored. I just need you to appreciate me. when you're broke I the one who help you with your financial, I bring your spirit up, I'll make sure you'll never give up but when the time comes you lied to me. c'mon! until when?

now your mom already meet my mom. & they talked about us. I just wan you to get change dude. be a lovable person, stop lying, care about me, be the one who understand me, & be the one who be with me whenever I need somebody.. please... you say you love me but please show me that you love me... stop end the call just like that because you scared of am getting mad.. stop off your phone when you're so fucked up with me without knowing the real story... pfft!!! at last... I said everything... & stop enjoying your life like crazy because you'll end up with make yourself broke. understand?

since the last song played.

2010-08-23T23:48:00.000-07:00

I believe that I'm yours forever since that night..
the last song played..
I really wan to hug you really bad..
I wan to be in your arm right here right now..
I miss you..
Crazy about you..
when you're not here with me..
every second I keep on missing you..

I'm sorry that I always get angry with you..
but it doesn't mean that I don't love you..
Jealousy & Curiosity controlled me..
because I don't wan you to left me..

Loving you is the sweetest thing I never did..
and I will not let it go easily..

Love you baby..
since the last song played..

Industrial Placement

2010-08-23T10:57:00.000-07:00

I just finished my Industrual Placement a.k.a practical & I'd already did the presentation. am the last person that present & I know I'm not doing it well. my bad~

am too busy with my other work which is fun & make me forget about my problem.. indirectly make me prepare my report last minute.

being secretary is such a disaster for me. need to do everything! unless the boss is your boyfriend. LOL

btw, am going to grad this december & am confused if I have to continue my study in business administration. I was feel like wanna work with Ms. Doreen which is my favourite lecturer at Pulau Tioman. at the same time I wan to continue my study.. which way to choose?

anyway! I'm going to grad this december.. yehaaa!!!!

move on~

2010-08-22T12:27:00.000-07:00

i have to do what i have to do. be independent. well, some people said that I'm independent.. but not the people who always around me... I'm dependent!!

it's true.. I'm really dependent even am going to be 20 soon.. i really need to change with what just happened to me now... i have to be fully independent.. I have to stand by my own without anyone's help..

thanks for my bestest friend for giving me support. yehaaa!!

one day before......

2010-08-20T23:38:00.000-07:00

muke high. tak tipsy lagi. heeee. XD

bhat..... me & Josh love ya! don't be sad okay? that Mr. Missunderstood still be ya friend... whatever happen to me & you it's just sooo 90210.. but we have to move on babe. go girl!! don't be sad. whatever happen must be have a reason... xoxo

she just got prank by Mr. Missunderstood... awwwww~ that's sweet.

the one who change my life a lot.

2010-07-21T10:18:00.000-07:00

searching, looking, finding, waiting..
for something..
am lost in the centre of nowhere..
looking at the star..
it's shine..

it's hard for me to let go something that's so precious in my life..
"HE"
the only guy who understand me,
concern about me,
love me..
he the guy who make me goes..
grr.. argh!!! b!!! orite.. okay.. awww!! thanks!!

the best memories i ever had is with you...

you cheer me up when I'd a bad day.
you gave me courage when am scared of something.
you do my assignment when my head feel like gonna blow off.
you bring back my smile when am angry.
you hug me when am feeling cold.
you cover my head when it's raining.
you hold my hand when i feel alone.
you give me whatever I wan even it's yours.

we always fight for something that out of our mind.

in TGI Fridays:
that's my food!
no...
yeah!
take it from my mouth.

searching for the Domino:
you know where's the domino?
yup!
where?
I have no idea.

his birthday party:
hey! do you get surprise?
ask kodel... It's hard for anyone to surprise me..

etc

looking at your birthday party that I'd set for you.
it was out of my mind.
combine all our friends, your friends, my friends & your family together.
it was a very successful party i ever made.
& the comments that the guest give kinda make me proud of myself.
simply a perfect birthday party.

but all this just a memory that am ready to let it go now. it hurt many people when my heart still with you.. so.. good bye best lover..

am free! am free! arghhh! am crying~

12 July 2010

2010-07-13T21:05:00.000-07:00

12.00 am
I don't know where's he. am so confused. why he didn't answer my phone calls & messages. I feel damn disappointed but what can I do? he'll never change even a bit. =.= he suppose to pick me up. but he's M.I.A

7.00 am
my phone rang. hurm.. just let him.

7.45 am
wake up from bed. smile! :)

9.00 am
college. college. friends that always make me laugh like crazy. ^^v

11.45 am
the zone fun zone! I wan to relax myself. wehoo! doing my hair, get a simple massage that can make me relax & do some treading for my brow. treat myself like a queen. :)

3.30 pm
Starbucks Fun Zone! there's 4 Australians. we have a chat. :) one of them been so sweet by kissing my hand. why in earth? this is 1st time.

4.30 pm
back to college. oh! he's back.

8.00 pm
going out with Josh. Pizza hut! thanks Josh!!

10.00 pm
Josh do some tricks (magic). oh my god! what's happening? how u do it? damn!! thanks everyone for bring my smile back.

white flag

2010-07-01T11:03:00.001-07:00

sorry if I annoyed you. I do love you but I have to let you go. I don't wan to destroy your new life. I always hope that you'll happy with her. I do all this because I was so confused. I can't stop think "If I'll be with him, can I make him happy?" "am I the one for him?" "should I?" I don't wan to break his heart.." etc.

I don't play with your heart sayang. no! am not. it's sad when you say such of things at me. can't you see how bad am I? I always broke your heart. I only gonna break your heart. that's what am scare.

I know 8 years was a very loooooooong time. am sorry. but I can't. am not a nice person. I wish I can be yours but I know am only gonna break your heart.

just go with her. she's a nice cute girl. I always hope that she gonna bring back your smile, she gonna make you smile when you damn angry with her, she gonna make you laugh until your tummy feels hurt, she's try her best to contact you even she's damn tired, she's gonna hold your hand & she won't hurt your feeling at all. she's the one.

M.I.H.A.R

2010-06-29T00:47:00.000-07:00

this is my 1st time write my blog in college.. well, now, i feel sucks & been dumb by someone (M.I.H.A.R). he's just a dumb ass who ain't man enough. keep on playing around like shit. sorry to say this.. but u r.. fuck up...

Shateesz now disturbing me! so can u please go away for a while.. thanks!!

he said "am so sorry I love to disturb people..."

ok whatever!!

back to my story..

dear M.I.H.A.R,

tak cukup lagi ke buat macam ni? I'd done everything just to make u happy man!! can't u see it or what? u said that I can't go clubbing anymore.. & now I don't... arggghhhhhh!!! i tak marah tapi i sedih.. that's different okay?

bye2~

29 June 2010's morning

2010-06-28T20:10:00.000-07:00

1st thing, I feel great when he found someone to make him happy. am soooo happy. hope he & his girlfriend will be such like fairy tales, they live happily forever after. good for you. ^^V

well, am still here alone.. everything is sucks! LOL no lah~ just my ex best friend keep on bullshit-ing around like shit. what's wrong with you? don't have anything to do is it? or you can't see am happy being single aite? pity you~

life must go on.. since the day we broke up i lost & I can't find myself.. but what else I can do.. I must move on even u're not by my side anymore.. LOL am independent! am strong enough to face it alone. even u not around.. u think I need you darling? think it twice..

10.15am..

New message Ferman

"nope... we havent reach that level yet... but soon... hahaha..."

am might be losing my mind.. keep on staring on my phone.. why? what's wrong with me? "nice wallpaper BTW.." ??? when I turned a round it was my dad.. he's smiling.. "is he the one?" again.. am blur.. looked into that picture.. "i don't think so.." flip my phone back.. went back to my bedroom.. he said.. "open ur heart for someone.. the one that can bring back ur smile..everyday.." ??? i replied "I found one but he's not mine.."

oh god! help me please.. show me the right path to go.. amin~

here, for you~

2010-06-27T08:33:00.000-07:00

take a deep breath.. fuhhh~

am happy for you.. finding someone else.. I hope she's the right one for you.. someone not like me.. hope so she's the girl who can take care of you.. the girl who will always missing you.. try to contact you even she's tired.. the one who will bring back ur smile when u angry.. the one who hold ur hand to walk with.. & hope she the one who will make u talk when u silent..

wish u happy with her forever & ever. good luck to have her. gambateh!

err.

2010-06-23T21:10:00.000-07:00

few days pass by.. take a deep breath... damn it! what's wrong with everybody? hate it!

the one
thanks for hurt my feeling. i know am a bad person. how dare u said all that f thing to me? i feel like a whore to u. stop this f-ing shit!

am strong enough to face all the shit around me. just me. I don't need anybody. am strong!! I don't need anybody!! I don't cry.. never! am strong!! damn!! am crying...

searching for ways to make me happy after I open my heart to accept ur love.. but it's closed again.. because of ur attitude.. how u treat me..

the phone ringing..
huh?
who text me?

"hey babe. r u free tonight? movie? dinner? shopping? or a date? u choose.. :)"

huh? what's in my head? somebody ask me out man!!

"have u watched Karate Kid? :)"

"no. have u?"

"nope."

"good. tonight i pick u up on 8pm infront of ur house. aite?"

"see u. :)"

"aite. :)"

6.30 pm.. still early.. hurm.. what am going to do? errr... blur.. =.=

7.00 pm.. preparing myself.

7.30 pm.. arghhh! what's the f-ing wrong with my hair. never mind! I know what to do..

8.00 pm.. phone rang. "hey babe. infront of ur house. :)" huh? what? damn!! "moment.." ok! done!

we had a salad at vivo, watched Karate Kid & hang out.. thanks for make feel better..

5.00 am.. hurmm.. thinking... take my phone.. menu.. messaging.. write new..

"hey! thanks for make me feel much better.."

"huh? why? r u sad?"

"nothing. good night. thanks! :)"

"aite. I had a very best date ever. thanks to u. good night love. :)"

huh? not again!! damn it!!

here, for you~

2010-06-13T09:32:00.000-07:00

I read your blog.. & smile.. even inside me full of sadness.. how could you write like that? am I a whore or what? I may look like one.. I may act like one.. but I'm not one of them.. why can't you understand that? *burn another stick of cigarette

think..
take a deep breath..
listen to the way you lie.
maybe that songs suit for u to give me is it?
okay!
continue writing...

I hurt too much.
am not ready to have another one..
still rehab my broken heart..

sometimes I feel like better for you to find someone else for now.
stop waiting..
am just a whore for you..
am just an useless person on earth..
keep on partying..
keep on enjoying..
come on!!
am still young..
am gonna stop soon..
but not now..
still enjoy being teenagers..
another 6 months am going to be an adult..
just let me be whatever I wan.
that's another point I don't need love.
I don't wan anybody to control me.
I wan to be FREE!!
please~
let me be free for now..

you're a good boy.. nice & kind.. lucky to have you in my life.. even there's other guys try to have me.. dear, am sorry if i hurt you but I'd hurt soooo much.. so sorry.. I'd a very sucks life for now.. am not selfish.. am not playing around.. my girls need me sayang.. they need me more than u.. one of them really need me for a few month because her problem takes a long time to settle it.. am happy with you.. but time don't let me to have some love for moment.. take care of urself.. I LOVE YOU~ even it's just a word & maybe not mean so much for you.. but for me it's more than 1001 other words.

for you~

2010-06-10T10:01:00.000-07:00

dear,

sometimes I feel that u're soooo busy working.. errr? sometimes? always lah! u broke ur promises that u gonna bring me to watch movie.. work for money & money for work.. day until night.. & night until the morning.. then sleep wake up on the evening.. work again.. haih! how sad my life is... honey my baby! hahaha totally not suit you darling... honey my money!! am bored man!!! open ur eyes & try to feel what i feel... sorry just a word.. easy to say.. love is just a meaningless thing that u always said to me. don't u dare to said u miss me when u don't.. cause i already broke inside...

xoxo
zara

stop giving even a chance~

2010-05-25T10:24:00.000-07:00

I keep on thinking..
why I have to give people 2nd chance?
when I need 2nd chance,
to make everything okay,
nobody let me..
even I cried,
I won't let it go,
they just walk away,
left me alone..
not once!
not twice!
how do I feel?
anybody care about it?
no!!
so, why should I?

take my hand please~

2010-05-24T21:56:00.000-07:00

Life,
going to be different,
without you in my side,
I don't mean to hurt you,
but I have to..

Heart,
the darkness heart,
still closed,
God,
please make it bright,
open it for someone who really love & care for me..

Hope,
why myself stop hoping for something that I want?
searching for love & happiness,
like other people..

Dad,
when I was young,
you said am going to be like fairy tale's princess,
going to live happy forever after,
but look me now?
why?

Love,
please don't run away,
I need someone,
to hold me tight,
oh! take my hand please~

Secret of mine

2010-05-21T22:35:00.000-07:00

The 10 secret of mine.. the truth about my life~

1. I hate that I can't pronounce "R" properly. shit!
2. I hate my work place!!
3. I'll be crazy when I saw a cute things..
4. I'm plastic! ;)
5. I'll eat when I get stress.
6. I wish someone buy a bb bold for me.
7. I'm collecting my money to buy a DSLR D300
8. I got a boyfriend. but.. hurmm...
9. the 1st things I do when I awake is "look into the mirror!!"
10. missing him~ T_T

no 8. tu ignore je. ade macam xde je.

it's you~

2010-05-21T22:18:00.000-07:00

it's hard for me to tell you how I feel about you~ I love you, but I don't think am the best for you.. everytime we walk together I feel my heart beating fast.. I feels like wanna hold ur hand.. keep linger in my mind "please hold me please... i need you..."

last monday..
am partying with the king of drunk.. the best moment i ever had even though the club is dead... he burning on the dance floor.. he's cute!! arghhhhh!! i miss that moment.... please come back!!

days to days..
i don't know what am thinking.. better be friends until am serious in relationship.. i guess, better he search for someone who is kind just like him.. god, please makes his life happier.. I don't wan to see him sad & stress just because of his problems & pain.. make him meet someone who is can take care of her.. please... makes his life happier..

me?
i got my own way & my own things to do..

am too dependent?

2010-05-01T10:37:00.000-07:00

this is what my ex said to me. thanks dear. I'm too dependent! I can't walk by own.. right?

it been for 2 weeks (I guess) am Single. No boyfriend.

I still can face this crazy world. I don't need anybody help to guide me what to do now or next. I already get the beat.

oh yeah!! before this someone said am partying like a rockstar. haha that totally wrong!! am just enjoying myself.. that's all. nothing is wrong.. I don't get drunk.. I still can walk straight...

well, I don't think I need someone to be my boyfriend now. Enjoy with my new life.

To my friend,

nothing's wrong being single. just enjoy it! one day u'll happy with it. sometimes we have to let go someone that we really love..

just let it go.. & join me! lollls

xde keje

2010-04-26T04:14:00.000-07:00

Bekas kekasih saya adalah
bekas kekasih saya.

Saya sedang mendengar
lagu dr Letters & Lights. In love & Outdone.

Mungkin saya patut
lupakan kisah lame mulakan hidup yg baru. ;)

Saya suka
pink!

Sahabat-sahabat baik saya
.Rabiatu Adawiyah
.Muhd Yunus

Saya tak paham
Kenapa dia tak paham2 saya. kenapa ea?

Saya kehilangan
sesuatu yang berharga.

Ramai yang berkata
saya strong. tapi sebenarnya saya balik rumah saya nangis kuat2.

Makna nama saya
Aizu:1 tempat di jepun

Zahra: bunga

Cinta itu adalah
bila 2 hati menjadi 1. awww~

Di suatu tempat, seseorang sedang

makan.. itu adik saya yang gemok.

Saya akan cuba

mencari cinta sejati.. haha

Ayat SELAMANYA membawa maksud

sampai bila2 lah kan??

Telefon bimbit saya

E71 Nokia

Bila saya terjaga dari tidur

saya check handphone. ada orang text tak?

Saya paling meluat apabila

orang bebel2. ok. tu je kot.

Pesta/Parti adalah

masa utk bergembira. lupa kan segala~

Haiwan yang paling comel yang saya pernah temui ialah

seekor kucing gemuk dan bulat mcm bola.

Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan bagi saya ialah

14 tahun

Hari ini

saya still baring atas katil sambil main laptop

Malam ini saya akan

tidur??

Esok pula saya akan

bangun lambat??

Saya betul-betul inginkan

kebahagiaan..

Ketika anda lihat wajah anda di hadapan cermin pagi ini

ok. serabai.

Pusat membeli-belah atau arked permainan

Pusat membeli belah

Makanan Barat atau Jepun

2 2 boleh?

Bilik yang terang atau gelap

gelap.

Makanan segera adalah

Fast food. haha

Ayat terakhir yang anda katakan pada seseorang?

eh!! nanti kite text awak ea? kite busy lah sekarang.

In love & outdone by Letters & Lights

2010-04-25T10:58:00.000-07:00

As our teenage heart raced, out of beat and out of place, and the stars in the sky burned down in the night. My heart multiplied, were alone for the night, but the silence drown me alive. My lips touched your nose, your on the tips of your toes, I smiled when my heart hit the floor, and my only mistake wasn't keeping it safe, so I died when my heart hit the floor.

This is me, honestly you were right I was wrong all along, but tonight we're still young so I'm leaving, from this town were both from, because tonight has become what I feared that it would. And everybody needs someone, and I can tell she's outdone herself, again... And everybody needs someone and I can tell she's outdone herself, again... again...

Every dance that we take out of beat and out of pace, and the clouds in the skies turn out where they lye. So I turn to the sky, opened up heavy eyes, but the autumn day, drown me alive. My lips touched your nose, your on the tips of your toes, I smiled when my heart hit the floor. And my only mistake, wasn't keeping it safe, so I died when my heart hit the floor.

This is me, honestly, you were right, I was wrong all along, but tonight were still young, so I'm leaving, from this town were both from, because to night has become what I feared that it would. And everybody needs someone, and I can tell she's outdone herself, again. And everybody needs someone and I can tell she's outdone herself again... again...

This is me, honestly you were right, I was wrong all along, but tonight were still young. But I am leaving, from this town were both from because tonight has become what I feared it would...

my self-patience

2010-04-17T09:48:00.000-07:00

I'm so tired of being here suppressed by all my childish fears
& if you have to leave I wish that you would just leave
your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase

14 April, 2010

2010-04-14T04:43:00.001-07:00

am sorry cause make you feel like that..
i really don't mean it..
so sorry..
i love you..
but when u do like this to me..
i feel like am lost..
better be alone..
i need somebody to talk to..
but everyone seems so busy..

i really into you..
but am ready if you ready to say good bye..

what's wrong?

2010-04-13T22:42:00.002-07:00

i feel like my life been so complicated.
i don't know why..

work..
i hate been tortured..
aizu! do that...
aizu.. do this..
i know am just a new girl..
but i also need time to rest!
i mean in 8 hours doing job unstop..
am i a robot or what?
am learning...
still learning.... =.=

study..
haih!! exam coming soon..
what should i do..
i been so busy working..
hate this subject..
theory subject..
have to do a lots of reading..
i hate reading..
i like math!!

boyfriend?
haha i have one!
sayang ke tak?
of course..
i just pity on him..
why lah u choose me?
am not good for you syg..

babes..
miss you girls!
can't wait for vacation with u guys!!

dudes..
party everyday! party everyday!
thanks cause always give me support even..
?????????
(tak tau nak cakap ape...)

well, i think that's all...
toodles!

working!

2010-04-12T09:59:00.000-07:00

1st day working at starbucks. susah tapi best.
partner2 semua sporting.. happy sgt.
tak sabar nak pakai apron kaler hijau lg.. :)
even sekarang rase macam nak tido tp tak boleh tido.
minum coffee byk sgt kot.. =.=

^^ V

2010-04-11T23:04:00.000-07:00

suke main delete2 post ni. hobby baru~

Babes!

2010-04-11T22:33:00.000-07:00

miera & yasmin
welcome2!!
korg boleh layan gossip2 dgn kitorg..

she's my new babe..
& she's really cute..
yasmin..

almost 4 hours they wait for me.
hahaha
sorry girls!

ade sesuatu tersembunyi kat photo ni..
haha secret.. tapi ade bukti yg jelas..
:)

congrats Gee.

2010-03-29T23:11:00.000-07:00

27 march 2010

akhirnya.. gee sudah menjadi tunangan orang.. lepas ni dah tak boleh nak enjoy2 lagi.. insyaAllah by the end of the month gee akan kahwin.. fuh! jeles ni. anyway congrats dear. :)